Wednesday, October 18, 2017

In Limbo

Our dog, Max, is almost 14 years old.  He's a Newfoundland mix, a big guy.  Jeff bought him in Germany when he was a puppy; he's a real world traveler.  I came into their lives about 10 years ago, so he's been my dog for a long time too. 

He's been talked about here in the blog several times over the years, most notably last summer, when one of his back legs was broken.  It was a long hard recovery for all of us, but the old man came out of the whole ordeal still smiling

Day before yesterday was a normal day around here.  Jeff decided to go to the beach and fly his quadcopters in the morning, he took Max with him.  They came home, Jeff went to work, Max and I hung out.  When Jeff got home, we noticed that Max didn't come to see him.  Max was in his usual spot in the living room, appearing not to care that Jeff was home, very unlike him.  We also noticed he hadn't eaten his food.  He's always been a bit of a finicky eater, but lately he's been eating very well, even licking out his bowl.  I thought maybe he'd gotten hot; our heating had kicked on for the first time that day. 

Then we thought maybe he'd overdone it at the beach and was just tired or a little sore, that's not terribly unusual these days either.  The two of us had to all but carry him upstairs to go to bed, not just give him a bit of a push up.  We went to bed and later shared that we were afraid what we'd find when we woke up, neither of us slept much at all.  Max was much the same in the morning, yesterday.  He just wanted to lay flat on his side and would barely even lift his head.  He seemed very weak, wouldn't eat anything, not even cheese.  We carried him downstairs on an improvised stretcher and took him to the vet.

At the vet, they took his temperature, he had a fever.  They did blood work, which came back okay.  Palpating his belly, they wanted to do an ultrasound.  The tech then called in the vet midway through, who looked at the screen and said, "Tumor.  So many."  Max is apparently riddled with tumors inside, we had no idea.  The vet said he can't tell if they have spread throughout the body, but being that there are so many in the one area, he thinks it's likely.  He thinks that one of them burst and that's why Max had a fever and was so sick, so suddenly. 

He said that with Max's age, surgery to try and remove the tumors would not be good, we do know that.  He said that he could give injections of antibiotics and steroids to treat the symptoms, we would have to bring Max back in twice a day to get those.  Jeff asked if that would give us a couple of months, a couple of weeks?

"A couple of days," was the reply.

Jeff decided to have the injections done and take Max back home, to say goodbye.  He took a couple of vacation days from work to stay home with him.

Yesterday, after that first vet visit, Max didn't show much of a change, we let him rest.  We had all decided that if he wasn't showing any improvement by tomorrow (today) then it would be time to let him go.  We were trying to prepare for that.  Later yesterday, he started to perk up a bit.  For the evening vet visit, he was laying upright in the car, instead of flat on his side.  He seemed much more aware and interested in his surroundings.  Last night he got up on his own again and walked around the house a little bit.  He also ate for the first time since all of this started, scarfing up a can of prescription high calorie canned food that the vet gave us to try and get something in him.

This morning, he had some trouble going down the stairs (sort of normal off and on lately anyway), but he was able to get around on his own mostly and seemed to be his old self again.  For this morning's visit, he was sitting up in the car when the vet came out. 

When he went into the clinic to let them know we were there, Jeff told the vet how much improvement there had been and he said they seemed skeptical. 

Until they came out and saw him sitting up in the car, looking around like nothing was wrong. 

Waiting and watching for Jeff to come out with the vet

It was a huge difference from 24 hours before, when he seemed to be on death's door.  They took his temperature again and seemed surprised that his fever was gone.  The vet was careful to stress that nothing has really changed inside, as far as with all of the tumors - they are still there.  However, he gave the okay for us to switch to pills for the medications, no more needles twice a day - Max only had to do that for the one day anyway. 

Now we...  aren't sure what to feel.  We went from thinking that we would be saying goodbye to him today to him being back to his old self, but knowing that the clock is still ticking.  We just have no idea how much time is left.  The vet clearly wasn't optimistic to begin with, but Max has surprised us all - again.

It's hard to feel in limbo.  I suppose none of us ever really know how much time we have with our pets (or any of our loved ones), but this is new to me... To go from thinking that we were going to have to suddenly, unexpectedly, make that horrible decision, to 24 hours later it all seeming like a bad dream and now things are "normal" again...? 

I'm not really sure how to feel.  I'm grateful that he is doing better and I hope we will have even more time with him, but I'm trying not to be too happy, this could be very temporary.  We just don't know.

Monday, October 16, 2017

Motivation Monday - Be A Legend

Happy Monday!  After a week of adventures out and about - traveling, hiking, taking in the beautiful fall colors, seeing horses, and making big future plans - I am all charged up and ready to (really) get to work!  

As always, I hope these help and I hope you have a great week!  

Friday, October 13, 2017

Friday Funnies - Cool With It

This week has been a whirlwind.  I've been on not one, not two, but THREE adventures that I intend to blog about.  However, so far I haven't been able to stop adventuring, or working our business's recent rush of...  business to blog about them.  I hope to remedy that this coming week...  after I have another adventure - this weekend.  Whew!

Anyhow, I hope these give a chuckle or two.  This edition is a blend of horses, introverts, chips and salsa, and cats...  always cats.

Happy Friday!

Tuesday, October 10, 2017

Quick Post: Travel Tuesday Preview

We are at the end of what was a 4 day weekend for Jeff and we did some adventuring during that time.  I had planned to do a full travel Tuesday post with some of the pictures, but our help was requested to assist in baking a BUNCH of cupcakes at a friend's house for a function tomorrow.  It's now 1am here and I didn't get my planned travel post done.  I'm hopeful that I might be able to get it posted tomorrow, still technically Tuesday for my U.S. readers.  If not, then on Wednesday.  ;)

For now, here's a quick preview.  We rode up into the mountains and saw some stunning fall colors.

Monday, October 9, 2017

Motivation Monday - One Day Closer

Happy Monday!  I came up with a bunch of pictures to share this time around.  I've got big plans for the week ahead and I know I can certainly use the boost from these.  I hope they help you too.  As always, I hope you have a great week and are able to get closer to your goals.  You can do it!

Saturday, October 7, 2017

Next Big Project - Clydesdale Makeover

MEPSA has a Makeover Contest every year where they pick a mold and then to enter the contest, you have to give one of them a makeover.

I've been wanting to try one of these contests for a few years now, but didn't have the mold on hand and ran out of time (two years ago), or just didn't really have any ideas (last year). 

This year the mold is the Breyer Clydesdale mare and, well, I have 4 of them in the body herd, so...

Here's the victim, er, patient:

Anything goes in these Makeover contests, from a simple repaint, to a complete overhaul. 

My thing has always been drastic customs, so I'm fairly sure that's what I'll be doing here.  But...  what?

For the last couple of hours I've been going through some of my extensive reference picture collection to brainstorm some ideas.  After this first round of brainstorming through my digital pictures, I do have an idea.  I think over the weekend I'll go through some of my other references, like the hard copy stuff, and see if anything else jumps out at me.

Does anyone else have an idea for what I might do with her? 

Friday, October 6, 2017

Friday Freebie on Facebook

I'm doing a spontaneous little giveaway over on my Facebook page and wanted to make sure my blog readers knew about it too, if you aren't already following my page there.

Here's what I've got up for grabs: winner's choice of the two purple trimmed blankets from my latest batch of Stablemate blankets.

They were made on the G3 Stockhorse and will fit similar sized molds.

If several people enter, I'll most likely draw two names and give the both away.  :)